In the past week, I have found myself doing some self-reflection. I think during this time most of us are staying home and finding things to do around the house, like spending some time with our loved ones at home, reading, studying, learning new things, relaxing, self-reflecting, self-caring and slowing down from the busy life before all this happened. 

I have been finding things to do around the house like cleaning my room, throwing out old papers and misalliances things. It feels so good to have thrown everything out that is taking up so much space all these years. I tell my friends all the time that cleaning is my only form of “exercise” nowadays.

Every morning I try to do my devotions and spend some time reading the word. I find that as you read the Bible and spend the time to read it slowly, you will find yourself changing a little bit each day. I had one of those days where I felt so much doubt in myself in everything that I do. I was talking to my best friend that night about how I was feeling. We talked about how I felt about my Christian life. Sometimes I feel like I am on the right track doing all that I should be doing, then other times I would feel like is everything that I am doing worth it. My best friend asked me some questions and got me thinking about what was the importance of living in this life and being a Christian. At the end of the conversation, he encouraged me to read Psalms 119. 

I knew I had to read this before bed because I knew I would be thinking the whole night and most likely won’t be able to fall sleep. Reading this chapter encouraged me. All the questions and doubts, thoughts that I had were being answered slowly through those verses. At the same time that I was reading this chapter, I made it as a simple prayer in my heart.

That same night I prayed a prayer to God that would once again be my recommitment to my relationship with Him and walk the ways He wants me to walk. I decided the next morning to write the prayer in my journal. I decided to make use of this notebook and turn it into a prayer journal. I have heard from somewhere that having a prayer journal is a good way to remind ourselves of what we prayed for and how our prayers get answered. Of course, not all of our prayer will be answered or have an answer. Maybe God may not answer our prayers the way we would like Him to at times. 

Having a prayer journal will defiantly help me to stay humble. I believe that God shows his blessings in the little things and through His ways. I would love to go back and re-read my prayers as a reminder to myself. To see how He is blessing me in His ways and how He would use my life as a blessing to others.